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I felt a little more able to deal today. Not sure why, because I spent most of it still being pissed off.

Believe it or not, a cousin actually called. Maybe one cares after all. I'd love to be proven wrong on that point. Plus, she told me a lot of things that helped me, things that I needed to hear, and things that I was thinking but afraid to feel or say.

My house has taken the brunt of my frustration, as I am an anger-cleaner.

I'm still not ready for much more right now.

I can't be your spring; I am your winter... at least for now.