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The following is a complete mind-blower. This is also why I have had a migraine headache for a few days now. I wasn't going to write about this here, as I usually keep my "issues" to myself. However, I am past the point of caring.

I had a semi-blowout with a friend/co-worker (known hereafter as F) a couple of days ago. It just so happens that one of my best friends (BF2) had the same situation with the same person on the SAME DAY. Except hers was so much worse than either of them realizes.

Yeah, I was ill for a couple of days, but eventually I decided life's too short and literally said "I'm over it." I have tried to not necessarily be friends with F, but to at least be nice and not bring up anything. F is VERY sensitive in the first place (which is actually how the whole problem started anyway). I have never had to walk on eggshells more than I have with F.

Here's the problem:

BF is so NOT over it. For a long time, BF has put up with F's sensitivity and bullying. Yeah, that's harsh, but it's true... at least from an outside perspective. I'm also not the only one to notice. Someone else asked me once why BF hasn't blown a gasket and told off F. I had no answer.

Therefore, while BF is totally justified in this, I am in a wierd position, especially since we have all been lunch partners for awhile. I can't mention going to lunch without F getting huffy and ignoring us both all over again.

First, GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK.
Second, I no longer have any tolerance for bullpoopie. I'm 30 and ready to have babies and I don't need the stress.
Third, I have more important things to do than worry about being a friend-fencerider.
Fourth, I don't CARE anymore. Get over it. Both of you.
Fifth, I will no longer suffer physically and emotionally for someone other than myself.

Actually, that's not TOTALLY true. I do care.
But I do mean get over it.